It's closing in... 8days left! :o excited and nervous at the same time! xD I really hope to get everything down until I leave, a specially selling everything or preserving it somewhere! Selling it would be the best though. I have a blown up bed in case I need one! :D haha! Prepared! :P So packing my life up is almost complete. Bags are done, now it's the boxes left. *Puh!

My personal statement

The reason that I want to go these courses I have applied for is because I want to do something for myself. I've been caring all my life about the people in my life so much that these people now have stopped me to say that I can't continuing to forget about myself anymore. I'm 25 years old, turning 26 this fall. The feeling of being 'too old' for the music industry have crossed my mind a couple of times, the toughest feeling though has been that I don't want to live my life looking back regretting not trying to go after my own dreams. When I need someone I always turn to music. When I listen to music I feel understood. I get my feelings out through the lyrics I hear and the ones I write down myself.  Music is my healing. The first time I turned to music I cant really remember since I've done it since day one. I've always been singing and dancing. The first time I felt my dream for real, the fire burning inside for how badly I wanted it, was when I saw Beyoncé for the fist time in Destiny's child on MTV. I can't remember the year but since that day my passion for music and being a performer has only grown to an even bigger wish for making this my own accomplishment. The most common time when I listen and dream away to music is when I'm on the bus. Music up on full volume and imagine how I would act on stage making the best performance ever. The first time I told myself that it's my time to go after my dreams and goals in life was for two years ago. It happens so much in life in so short time, however my passion and love for this profession only grows bigger for every minute of the day. I've had the opportunity to work with events building up the stages, the preparations for the musicians and the safety that is needed when having festivals/concerts. With the experience of being behind the stage preparing everything for a festival I've got the knowledge of how to build a stage, the importance of the fences around the area and even the tents for shelter of the weather or for food stands. With the experience of being on the stage I've got the knowledge of the importance of the lights, the sounds and even the look of the positions of the band. With the experience of being in front of the stage I've got the knowledge of the importance of safety, not just for the musicians but also for the crowd visiting the festival. With all this amazing experiences it has given me a lot more tools and knowledge about the industry then I knew even existed three years ago. This is something I have been around since I was around six years old, performing and making shows. I'm no longer satisfied with watching other people perform as a person of the crowd. It may have taken me some years to grow the courage to apply for this massive dream I have, but I have always been ready to take this step and make my dream an everyday life. I am amazing when I work with music, I love to express myself through lyrics and voice, I am actually quite good at it and I love to see others be as creative as me. I can have my moments when I don't feel good at what I do because of the reason that I listen to someone other then myself that is great. But this gives me an perspective of not just music but of the massive industry of amazing people I get so inspired by. I am very driven, might be a bit perfectionist but I always finish what I start. This is going to be scary, no doubt, but this is what I dream of and I have a way to big fire inside to just ignore it like it isn't there. I have no idea of how hard competition it is to get in on BIMM but I can imagine that there are many talented people trying to go there. I can only continue dreaming away for this journey to start 'til the day I get the result of being accepted or not. I want this so bad, I can't really explain it to well. I can however tell you and promise you that you wont regretting having me as one of your students. The motivation for this trip is beyond words.

Yours sincerely,

Ceciliah Karlsson

Hi blog!
Been busy lately planing my last couple of weeks in school and at home for England and selling stuff. I also btw hihi(!) tattooed myself yesterday! :D well I didn't make the tattoo on myself, a tattoo artist did hehe :P made a other placement then I thought I was going to take when I came there so feeling a little nervous for the tattoo at the moment, cause I don't do last minute tattoos! But it feels good and I really love it, so fingers crossed that this one will be as amazing as my other two! ^^ Feeling very pleased with it so, that's a good start! :D

So back to life haha! The weeks are planed and are counting down for every second of the day. Scary but oh so looking forward for this trip and journey! I'm am so so excited about this. I haven't been able to update you on my application for the BIMM school! OMG I'm so sorry! It was so hard but I made my personal statement really good and feel like my letter is a good piece and you can really feel my passion and get a feel of who I am. So feeling proud of that, now it's just the wait for the answer. Fingers crossed! <3

Now I'm off for dinner, feeling super hungry for the moment so need some energy! ;D
I'll make a update later on again!

Secondly will be lots of photos of the central of Amsterdam! Enjoy! ^^

And of course(!!!) the famous and so cool Red light district! I got to visit it both day and night and it was really cool!

Even saw this cute statue that was placed all over the center with different paintings on them. Some thing for UNICEF :)

And this was for the Anne Frank museum, so amazing. This is the only picture I have because of the no pictures rule! ^^

And last... the cool treehouse in the back of the hostel! XD 

So I'm back now in Sweden, met some really cool people and was so not ready to go home to Sweden...! So ready for England haha :P and in case you are wondering about the 'friend'..? Yeah no I don't call him by friend anymore. 

So first I'm going to show you the inside of my room in the Hostel, the name of the Hostel was WOW and it was kind of cool! ^^
Some art and music was going on and was quite suiting me haha! :D

This was my view from the bed hehe :P the two doors where a bathroom and a shower. 

So... where is this you wonder? This is Amsterdam, Holland! As usually I have forgotten to update the blog being wrapped up in stress, but here is what happened. So I have a friend that's from Holland and he wanted me to come over to visit, I thought sure why not, I've never been there and I want to see how he lives. I'm sitting on my plane, feeling a bit nervous, cause this was my first trip ever since I was a kid going with my parents... so kind of a big deal! :P 

So I'm sitting on my plane, waiting for everyone to sit down and for the plane to take off, I get this message on Facebook. So it's my friend telling me that by the way, I'm not going to meet you at the airport or see you during your trip here. Yeah this is seriously what happened. If you never have had panic I think you can kind of imagine me getting some right at this moment. But it wasn't like I could turn around now or sell my trip or anything, so I thought I had to go through with it... I get to the airport in Amsterdam, getting lost during me trying to find my hostel with trains, everything was so crazy and I was not feeling very confident or a specially happy at this 'friend' of mine at this point. Finally I got a cab driving me to the hostel, get inside, check in and go up to my room, talked to some people which I was sharing the room with, took a shower and went to bed. All I could think of at this point was that, "I'm not sure what I will do tomorrow or the other up coming days, but what I do know is that I will try to make it worth it.". Then the next day my adventures started!

Hi blog!
Today is a good day! :)
I'm working on a document with all the things I have to fix and are fixing for my England trip that I thought would be fun to share here on the blog. Currently I've booked an english course in Brighton! :D :D :D WOOOHHHOOO!!! :D :D :D So, 1week of wandering around in Irland, 1week in London and Brighton and then I'm starting the course of english and have it for the next 3months to come! :D So I am going to live there for three month total, right now! ;D 
More about this later when I post everything you need to fix before a move! :) So excited! :D <3